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Seirye's Journal

#11
Entry Seventeen

Ļ̵͚̟̝͈̗̺̹̯͠͠u̶͏͖̳̬̦͕͎̫̣̬͚̻̘͈̜̠̳͖̻̖c̸̯̣̯͚̖̮̫͞į̘̭͍̟̱̮͔̙̻̝̱͇̪͢a̴̝͈̦̖͈̝͝n͉̺̼̬͍̪̭̳̩̦͉͎̕ͅo̖̝̭̟̖͞,͢͏̷͖͙̫̥̗̖̹̥̙̻̟̼̞̳̥̺͞ ̰̜͓̳̯̗̣͈̝̻̖̝̠͝ͅs̷͓̼̥̭̹͜͠͠t͏̨̛͡҉̳͖̻̟ǫ̴̶̗̹͈͍̜͍͎̺͝p҉̴̣̺͇͖͕͇̻͇̕͟.̨҉̷̸͇̫͍̟̠̦ͅ
̢̨͉̜͔I̞̦͇̯̙͍̣͉̫̭͖̠͠ ̟̞̹̼̱̲͉̯̝̺͉̜̻͇̀ͅͅͅw̡̧͓͉̼͚̯͔̘̻̜̼̟̤̜̫͠ͅi̺̫̞͈̪̜̘̗̲͎͘ḽ̢̻͙̖̬̱̖͈̝̜̰̱͈̹͙̦͍̭͟͞l̴̴̖̙̮̬̯̞͚̼̯̲͉̻͉͇͕͕ ̴̢̱̦̻̲͔̘̟̭͟͟ͅn҉̧̬̥̰͕͎͖̝̮͈̺͘o͘͏̺̯̫̙̞͙t̶̸̴̤͉͉̖̙̞̤̯̜͇̜̮͟ ̶̡̢̛͕͍͓̟̩̫̠͔̪͙̫͖̮̠d̸̛̝͈̤̝̲͎͎̖̬̻͉̭̻͜o͏͏̪̣͎̰͚͕̺̟͙̮̲̼̫̟̭͖͙̳̜ ̷̫͈̰̜̲̦͞͠w̷̶̮͔̻͈͚͓̮̜̗̣̣̘̯̥͘͜h̭̲̺͉͜a͟҉҉̠̱̪̖̩͙̯̬̜̠̼̦̯̰͔̮t̸̰̫̬̳͖̣͈̼͕͟͝͡ ̴͓̩͉͍̗͚̱͕͓̭̗͙̭͖̻̪̥̥͉̀̕͝y̶̢̳̤̩̠̺͈͓̻̞̣̲͕̼͞͞͞o̸̺̣̘̺̮̝̮̼̬̯̮̺͕͚̜̘ͅu̷̕҉̳̪͉̠͜ ͏̸̴̢͕͓͉̼̟̮̪̠̞͔̯̀w̛͈͇͖̺̣͓̜͝ͅa̴̲̗̫̺̼̳͕̭̮̞͚̕͢͞n̴̡͕̫͎̙̦̩͚̗̹̘͕̹̥̝͖͖͝ͅͅt̷̸̠̝͉̳̳̻͖̤̳͓̱̝̣͓͉͢ ̸̵̷̧͎̺̪͉̗m̷̲͙̞͙̻̗͍͘̕e̵̼̣̲͚̯̗͓̘̪̤͠ͅͅ ͏̶̖̹͎͈͜͞t̴̨̻͕̳͔̫̻̰̥̮̣̻͚͇̗̀ͅo̸̠̪̬̼͡͡ ͇̖̙̙̺̮͉͎̘͉͈͔̪͉̝͕͟͞ḍ̟̜̣͔̼͍̠͖̹̜̟̺̀͜͝o͞͏̵͍̥̝̱̜̣̖̹͖͖̟̗̝̰͜.̨̛̫̰̹͎̦̗̼̲̣̹̦̘̰̥͖̜̀͝ͅ
̷̷̡͔̼͚̱̻̖̹̹̖̟̫̹̫̀Ì̵̵̵̷̩͖̬̬͚͇̺̻̯͓̠̗̹̰̙͕͓ ͏͖͈̮̥̣̞̠̺̝͍̥̬̬̜̟́͝c̴̡̨̣̩̟̥͙̤͎̯ą̶̼̤͇̯͎͈͓̳̳͕̫n̨̳̰̹̹̯̻̣̲͇n͏̴͍̺̣̝̙o̴͇̲̻̘͖̼̙̘͜ṯ̸̷̫̟̕ ̵̨̧̞̻̝̮̠͎͜͢d̦͕͉̘̣͚̜̺̪͙̬̯̥̞̩͢ͅo̕͞͡҉̟̝͎͎̝͔̫̼̺͔ ̢͉̰̝̝̪̘̖̻̣̟͕̲͙̠̀͡i͡͏̨͖͙̙̖͉͢t̴̡̢̥̪̱̜͍̖͖͉͎̱̳̤͎̞̩͡.̸̯̬̳͙̼͉͍͚̜̠̭̲̣͝͝
͉̼̻͇͍̦̣̼̦͚́͟Ị̷̸̢̘̳̼̯̭͇̘͙͍̩̙͕̥̮͚̦́ ̘̞̯̩̖͕̲̻͕̲̝̗̻͔̭́w̶̛̫̥̜̞̖̘̪̝̤̠̣͎͢i͢͏͈̜̣̥͚̼̬̘̜͔͢ͅͅl̵̻̘̖̜͈̝͓͙̻͎̤̜̼͙̺l̸̹̼̬͔̱̼͜ ͏̝̠̜̱͓͘͞͞ņ̷̘͇͓̩̻̥͉̖͡͠o̢̢͍̺̖̳̩͝ţ̷̧͙̻̯̲͚͍͖̱̬͈͚̗̼͍͢͡ ̶̤̱̯͍̜̭̩͜r̛͍̤̮̞̺̘͍̫̪̤̻̱͍̩̯į̴̤̹͓̜s҉̡͕̺̼͖͇͜k҉̷͏͈̳̝̲̘̰̦̻̫ ͙̺̥̘̠̹͍̪͎͔̫͚̖̗̜̲͈͘͢͝d̮̮̪̝̤͖̜̜̠̖̲̱̱͇̠̀͘͝o͏̸̪̪͖̗̰̥̝̗̪̟̱̰͝ͅi̧̘̥̼̞̙͇̙̙̺̝̺̣̻̳̺͇͢͞ǹ̙̬̹̤͉̰ģ̢͖͕̟̬̠̖͚̝͈̜̝̹̦͍̮̜͟͠͞ͅ ̗̙͓͔͕̞̳̳̞̦̭̠̻͜͜͡͡t͝͏͖͔̯̲͉͜h͕͕̰̰͚̪̲̟̞̲̼͟͠ͅa̷̡̺̜̖͓̘̺̦̲̳̗̭̪͢͠t̴̛̥̱͖̠̬̞̩ ̶̛͖͍̟̖͇̠͇͈̳̮̘̺͖̯̟͘ṯ̶̶̨̫̠̲̖̫̬͉̹͈͍̲͎̙̪̪̙̠͞͝o̧͚͔̠͓̖̻̠̻͙͇͍̩̜̝͡͡ ̀҉̴̳̻̤̺͓͇̯̙ͅA̗͉͈̣͎̲͕̬̻̻̺͜͞ͅn͔͓̟̠͖͔̭̹̪̟͎̝͚̟̪͘͡͞͞ͅͅg͝͞͝͏̥̼̖͎è̷̸͎͇̥̪͉̠̞̳̹͔̻͙̻̣ͅl̶̵̛̲̹̯͟o̸̺̥̫̝̝͖̹̮̫̺̪̱͚̱̗͟͞͝ͅ.҉̵̛͠҉̠͖͕̤͕
̵͔̩̠̟͘Ǫ̵̬̦̰̘̹͝͞r͡҉̶̨͔̗̲͓̯͠ ͏̸̛͠͏̫̼̟̻̞̹V̛̪͙͉̪̠̖̲̠̱̮͢͜ͅi̺͖̻͇̖͞͠ę̸̼̹̼̦͡͞r̨̛̺̥̣̬͔̬̤̪̣̘̖͔̲̟̫͞͠i͈̫͖̮̩͓̣̩͇̠͔̪̘̥͖̟̝͟ͅ.̶̴̧̀҉̞̝͕̜̺͎̻̝̺̞̝̭̘̤͉ͅ
̴̧̹̙̗͙̺̟̝̗̜͉͎͚͉̱̯̘̰̺͙͢O̪͙̣͖̖̕͟͝ͅr҉̵̷̱̫͔͚̰̰̀ ̭̰̝͉̯̙̰̰̙̝̖͈̦̞͚̺̭͍̀͠͡Ń̡͖͓̯̪̩͔̜̖̥̺̳̕͠o̳̫̟͍̣͍̯̗͙͘e̴̡͞͡҉̲̰͉̜̤̭̙̦ͅĺ̡̡̡̳̰͓̫̞̮̫̥͓̝͚̣̩͚͈͉̻͢l̶͓͕̝͉̪̪͉̻̬͚̪͇̬͎̤̖̼̀é̵̮̣̠̻̞͖.̸̵̡̡̬̼̳̲͙̫̬̖̞
͠͏̬͈̹͉͕͕͕͉͉̺̯Á̳̻̝̘̜͇͍̻̝̤̼̪̲͓͓̱́͠n̶͓͎̥̤̳̳̰̪̮̟̝̩͉̥̲͘͠y̵̨̡͇̻͈̫̩͓͍̼̪̮͎̤̣̘̙̯̖o̻̳͙̙̰͈̳͖̗̯̖̪͡ń̴̟̯̬̞͟͡e̷̷̵̡̧̖̬̣̪̬̺̙̙̱̪͎̟̹̙̝͇.͎͕̙̙̙̕͢ͅͅ
҉̸̧͓̖̳̩̻̪̰̜̝̜̥̬͍͚͇̖͙̣N̛͏̼̰̩͖͕͎̫̙̪͇̘̭̗̮̺̘o͏̸̶҉̥̤̯̰͉̹͎̣͖̹̤̖̦̠͔̙̖̲̬t̷̨̼͔̳͕̟͡ ̶̧̧̺̹͙̣͓̺̘̰͙̭͙͞n̵͉̺̘̝̩̬̩̤̼̗̻͡o͏̵̵̸̱͈̣͚̗͝w̶̨̯̖͕̳.̰͈̺̞̥̼̙̭̥̣͜͠ͅ
̵̵̴̜̭̞̝̘̮͡͝I͏̛͈̤͎͚̞̩͎̦̰͕̜̬͔̩̼̘̬̯̳͜͡ ͏̸̟̲̥̥̟̩̲͔̦̟̬̩̭̖͔̟̰̞́͜l̨̛͓̼̰̪͚̮͈̖̳̺̞͢ơ̵͉͚̲̬̝̣͇̲͈̙̬͜͢v̯͈̞̩̣̪̮̰͟e̶͠҉̣̖̹͔̰̲̭͕́ͅ ̧̨̣̝̳̜͎h̩̖͔̲̗̣̲̲͍̼͇͉̘̫̥̞̬͈͜͜͠ͅì̴̢͡҉̪͈͚̮̙͔̦̖̭m̶̛̼͔̮͈̀.͢͏̵̶̴̘̼̩̼̠͕̩̫̼̞͙̖͙̯̬ͅ
̵̧̡̜͎̫̬͟͠ͅÌ̴̱̞̯̲̼̮̭̟̹̥̗̪̰́ͅ ͜͜͠҉̧̺͕̜̘͉̙̗̱͇t̷̼̯̜̮̝̖̦̩̗͇̹̤̣̤͘͢r̵̨̤̠̺̺̳͉̖̞̪͙̹͖̪̤̼̲u͘҉͔̼͖̟̼͕͖s̵̙̗̹̘̼͎͚̮̲̲͙̥͠ͅt̢̪̝͍̙̘̗̭̜̥͉̳͇͜ ҉̶̠͙͘͢ͅh̨̪͈̼̹̲͇̗͈̠͎͚̣̱̤̲͓͇͘͘͝i̴̧̪͉̯̱̱̦̠̰̳͓̗̩̫̤͍̘̺͇͡m̮̳̭͎̥̺̙͓̪͔̭͔̺̲̺̺͓̭͜͞ ̸͕̮̯̹̺̝̟̝͇ẃ̳̗͕͍͇͓̺͔̻̠̜̝͎̮͙̳̀į̶͍̜̤̩̰̫͟t͏̶̮̺͚̜̯h̵̦̮̙̬̪̲̟̫͚́́͠͞ ̢̦͎̤̫̣̮̠͇̯̗͞é̸͜͢͏̹̭̜̙̣̯̘̯̼̗̙̖̭̮̞̳̠ͅv͘͜͏̢͇̱͚͔̩͈͉̲͇̗͍̥̠̲̜̮e҉̢̪̙̯̮̩̘ŗ̴̛̰̰̻̝̟͚̩̹͘y̶̨̛̝͍͉̜͜͠t̻͉̜͖̯͢͞h̸̸͇̲̮̠̜̙͔̯̬͕͉̻̣̰̦̠͉̪͘i̵͎͖̟̪͟͢n̷̠̰͕̤̣̩̘̞͙̣͈̮͔͢͞͝g̷̨̨̛̗̦͔̜̱̠͙̪̞̺̣̪̤̮̕ ̕͝͏͔͕̣̬͚͕̫̠̟̰̥̀Į̡͓̤͍̯̻̹̩͍̯͇͔̹͇̜̼͠ ̧̨̩̳̣̀ḩ͞͏͙̮̬̜̜͇͇͍̤̣͇̘̱̟a͓̙͎̥̹͓͙͎͙͠͞ͅv҉̴͙͖͇̥̪̞̙̜̥̲̙͖̖͕̤̳̙̗̀ȩ̛̹͔̼̘̘͓͖̭̙̤̮̝̳̫̩̹.̻̺̯̹̠̥͍͙̺͔̕͠
҉͏̨͎͈̹̼̰͉̺̬̘̼͕̳̹̼̰̀͢Ì̸̸̢̬̬̳̩̼͎̠͔̫̼̦̱͚̝̦̻ͅ ̵̵̡̙̹̻̬̹͇̮̞̦̗̻̭͙͖̜̠̝w͏̡̢͓̗͕̲͔̱̬̭̯̣͍̲̱̥͔͇͇̪̀͡ò̷̧̯̗̣̭̜̠̻̫̜͉̙̮̯̣̖̀ͅù̵̡͖̯̘̮͚̻͓͕̗̗̻͓̲̻͟ĺ̶͕̝̳̩̭̭̮̣̳͉̻̳̳͓̼͇̻d̸̢̪͚͎̩̗̩̜̟̠̲͍̺̣͓̣͖̬͕̲́͝ ̷̼̱̮̕̕͞n̨̛͙̩̘̰̘̟̥͇̥̭̥̖̫e̴͟҉̵̗̪̯̰̞̙̻̟̪̘͉̞̩͟v̡͠҉̸̛͓̝͔̭é̷̜̮̬̯́r̦̟̲͎͉̤̖̣͔̪̙͔̤̺̣͎̱̠̞͜͜͝ ̵̛҉͍̯̮̩̗͖̠̩̬͍̤̦̙h̩̘̦̕͘͝͠á̧͎̬̤͓͍̫̻͖͚͠͝ͅv͝҉̶̠͔̙͕̪̯̳̫̟͢ȩ͠͏̧̼̖͎̠́ ̡̘̹̳̹͍͍̦̦̕͜͟͡a҉̶̢̧̦̫̣͍̣͓͢g̣͕̹̫̼̹̜̕͢ŗ̞͕̦͈̬̠̯̰̟̫͞e̶͕͇̤̝͙͉͝͞ͅȩ͔̼̙͍̺̜͓͉͕̤̖͕͘d̴̖̳̬̳̖̬̳͚͈̗̟͍̳̘͘ͅ ̧̭̻̲̯̯͔̮͉͖̗̯̮̲̬̕͟͜͟i̷̷̶̩̞̥͖͈̦͕̰̗̬̞̻͎̬̹͚͘f̵̦̭̰̖͍̝̰͔̫̞͝ ͏҉̙̞̠̮̙̖̗̠͕̦̯̞̻͙I̢͘͏̤̱̹̦̬̬̺͔̗̟͇͚̜͓͖͈̣̼ͅ ҉͚̣̟̯̦̲͕̥̀͠͞d̷̷̶̜̦̭̝̹̻̙̦̺͈̳̼͡͝į̣͚̰̜̲͙́͡d̴̵͙͚̠̳̙̦̠̪͜͠ ̷̯̰̹̜̭̘̣͙͞͞ǹ̵̘̝̭͖̯̞͡ó̵͉̤̟̺̻͈͔̺̺̀͞t̴̮̥͍̝͉͔̦̞͈̯̙̹͎͍̟̤̝̩́͘͡.̵҉̡̘͙̦̟̪́͢
̨̛̱̞̬̲̪͎̣̭̭̤̼̦̲̙̘̤̦̟̟́͘͢
̴͘҉̛̛̫̰̝̮͖͈͔̝͓̹H̜͎̮͖̺̳͙͇́̀͟e͏̷̸̬̫̤͖̟̩̟͎͜͝ ͏̢͎̘̝̭̩͍͉͇̳w̵͏̴̬̖̗̩̝͉̣i̢̜͖̝̻̝̻̖̩̜ͅl͜҉҉̶̵͈͕͙̘̲̼̤̩̪̰͔ĺ͇̱̠͔̣͙̗̝̰̭̖͈̩̩̪̖̀̕͜ ̷̛̳̩̝̯̫̳̮͜͠d̶̨̡̼͖͎̟̤̘̠̣̥͟ơ҉͏͙̣͚̙̺̫̻̳͢ͅ ̵̧̭̟̜̠̰̱̹̯̱̫̟̟͇͕̜̞͟͟͞ͅͅt̴͢҉̰̳͔̫͇̜h̵͟҉̳͈̥͍̹̟̦̯̯̳̭̲̲̭̺͖͖̤é̷̡̻͔̱̤̠͟ ̶̖̩͔̘̟͚̜͇̦̖͖͇͓̦̱̩̥̕͢r̵̶̼͕̺̙̲̰͍̥̥̬̘̞̕͝i̸̢̧̮͕̩̤̲̖̙̬̘̠̪̙͎̳̘̖̫̙͖͟g̸͏̨͖͈̺̣͙̰͚̟̳ͅh̴͈̗͎̕͜͠t̸̡̤̺̤̠̙͍̩̣̯̦̣̹̱͎͍̹̯͖ ̵̴̷̴͚̗͓̼̦̹̲̘̞̳͡t̛҉̴͍̟̗͖̠̣͕͚̖͎̯̱̺̲̣̠̦͙h̷̵͍̯͙̙̣̳̺̳͉͓͙̼̯͟i̸̷̜͕̬͈̮̺͎̥͍̫͔͍͝͞͡n̸̨̛̬̼̹͘̕g̻͕̝̬̘̕͞.̡̛̖̤̰̦͉̜͎̘͎̥̹͈͚̀
͝҉̦̹͍͉͍͓̺̳̙̪͖̀͠ͅͅͅ
̷̥̞̗̹̤͈̰̣͔̭̪́́͡I͜͏̶̡̲̥̜̤͓̜̙͎ ̶̷͈͇̱̳̞͓̱̝̯̝̦h̸̛̙͙̟̘̯̕͢ą̧̝̗̦̳̱͘͜͜v͔͎̠͓̣̖̲̺̖̤͇̪͉̪̺͕̘́̕e͏҉͇͉̖̩̮̀͠͞ͅ ̶̵̧͈̤̟̬̘͙̟̣͘ͅf͏̸̨͍̫̩̻̭̮̗a̷̩̫͎̰̰̘̲̹̩͎͝i̷̧͙̳̖̱t̴̢̢̗̜͍̟̬̺͍̙̬̭͎̣̺̞̥́h̡̧͍̞̜̪̳͇͎͚̲̱̯͎ͅ ̝̗͉̖͇͈͇͟͠͞ͅį̴̵̻̝̩̞n̵͝҉̝̠̺̺̺̜̫̞̱͍͎͕̬̲̹̪̝ ̡̯̹͓͕͖̤͕͍͘h̨҉̨̻̹̱̯͚̪͎̻̣̞̻̝̺̭̩͎̞ị̺̤̙͙̱̜́͟͟͜ͅm̧̢̩̦̬̦̻̘̞̻̜̥͢͝.̧̧̱̞̮̟͟
̷̹̤̬̣̰̤̲̭̪̤̰̤͟͡
̨̢̛̼̠͙̗͔̬̱͍͔̻̳̣̞͎̮́I̼̻̥̫̥̳̠̘̯͚͖͕͘͡ ̢̭͇̟͙̬̳̩̲͙̭̻͕̫͝h̴̺̰̲̖̜͙̳͈͖̦͝͡a̛̘̖̳̟̯̠̳̹̦̯͖͓͎͎̝͜͡v̵̢͎͎̰ͅe̛͞͏̷̯͙̘ ̵̮̞̫͕̘̖̹͕́́̕͜f͙̝̻͈̲̟͜͞͝a̺̗̫̬͇̪͎͖̘͢i҉̲̘̳̜̟t̶̴͈̺̹̲͉̮̗̦̝̣̺̱͍̣̫͉͢͞h̴̬̦̫̩͔̳͇̣͖̜́͜͠͝ͅ ̢̟̗̯̼̭̟̳̝͔̹̝̳͘͢͝i̴̪̞̙̩̝̮͖͜͢͡n̷̴̼͙̲̥̪̯̳̗̠̤̬̦̣̫͚̦̭͟ͅ ҉̕͢͏̩̳̜̩u̵͈̟̮̙͚̫͔͙͍͔̮̞̺̠̟͜ś̳͎͖̺̝̞̥͙͉̪̼́̕͜͢.̛̣̰̮̣̠̭̼͜͡
̷́͢҉̘͍̗͚͍̥̙͕̱͜
̸͏̧̻͓̩̤̲̯͉̫̮͔̖́N̡̧̯͙̪̘͔̭͓̕͘ớ̢̨̖̲͍̩̼͇̯̀ͅt̷̴̫̩̬͇͖̤̰̜̦͎͓̜͖͓̤h̹̲͕̭͚̤̮̠̖͖̼̦͎͖̪͍͓͘͢͜͠i̷̞̹̺̜̙͔͓̯̖̰̩͘ń̢̡̳͙̱̼͈̱͢͠ͅg҉̩̯̭̻͙̪͟ ̗͙̘͈̞́y̡͞҉̗̲͎̼͚̟̳͉̺͓̦̮̫̫̝͎̙͚̜o̧͕̞̪̦͓̬̥̹̼̟̰̜̘̕͟u̧͏͏̘̞̖̦̳̦̰̺̤̘̝͎̕ ̢̧̦̩̞͖͎̲͕̦͓̰̪͇̀c̡̛̩̫͚ͅa̶̶̢̲̺̩̼͉̺̜͈͉͎͙͙͔̠̝̭̠ͅn̶͢͞҉̧̱̝̯̩̟̳̦̜̺̺̘̯̰̠ ̢̛͍̤͚̥̼͖̪̜͓̫̺͕̠̀͢s̷͏͇̺̯̼̥̺̻ͅͅą̶̢̧̱̻͔̪̲͖͉̣̪͔͉̝͚̪̜͉̥͉͜y̨̫̤͍̣̫͓̟̲̤̞̮̜̕͜͟͝ ̫͈̳͕̱͔͜͜c̡̲̲̙͕͍̲̙̱̀͟͟͞a̴̷͝҉҉͈͔̤̝̰̯͖n̛͠͏̷̬̪͕͙̳̱͕̝̼ ̡̘̟̘̫̕ͅc҉̷̷̨͓͇̤̭̪̙̻͇͉͜h̢̨͚͈͕̤̘͠ą̵͚̹̹̟͚̞̩̤͇̞͔͢n͟͏̬̳̥̲̜͔͖̯̻̬͎̗̙͟g̢̛̩̼̟̘̦̻̹̺̗̙̼͚̫̬̼̬͢͝ͅe̡̠̺͓͖̕͡ ̷̸̨̙͚̜̖̮̮̘̜̠̪̯̩̀͠ṱ̴͍̳̙̱̜͖͉͘h̵̼̥̝̫̱̯̼̻̟̺̼͚̭̜̞͙͖̟̕͘͜͞a͟҉̮̭̫̤̭̺̞̰t̸̨̫̞̬͖̙̤̜̜̦̟̼͝.̡̙͓̳̤͉͟͝
͔͉̝̙̦̯̠͓̦̟̲̤̼̞͘͢
̷͟҉̹̠̮̻̳̝Ņ͕̲͕̭́͘ ҉̨͓̪͍̤̯͓̯̟ͅǫ̷̷̬̱͙͉̭͇͈̗͖͎̣̻͟͠ͅ ̸̺̻̼̖͕̬͇̮̬͞t͞҉̨̛̖̞̬͉̗̜̹̱̟̳̪̠̩̠̟̕ ͎̜̰̜̠̖̀͢h̨͚̻͇͖͙͙̭͖̜͎͓͈̺̫͉̼̣͟ ̢͖̱͎̼̫̼̮͎͖̹̰͈̩͟͞į̙͙̱̖̮͙̙̞͚̟̙̺̝̩̦͙͓̕̕͠ͅ ̶̨̛̟̱͓̣̜̮̪̘̭͖̻̥͝n̷҉̼̦̜̯̜͙̘͍̝̤͈̪̮̀ ̴̝̳̗͓͕́͞͡g̴̨̺͇̪̬̩͙͔̟̪͓̞͍̹̲͍̠̺ͅ.̢̛̣͎̯̰̯̀͘
͏̳̮̦̤͓̟̲̝̲̱͘͞
͟͏̗͎͕͍̩̳͓͔̖͖͚̲̮̫̘ͅ.̸͞҉͏̱̤̺͉͉̝ͅ
̵̵̢̬̲̼̞̣̱̳̭̟̳̬
̧̜͇̠̝̠̺̼̹̤͜͡.̸̵̖̝͉͉̘̘̦͙̗̕͟ͅ
̥̗̱̰̼͇͍̘͖̭̖̤̰̰̲̖͎̦͝
̢̡̖̥̝̝̻̤̟̼͍̻̘͟.̴҉̷͔̤͎͎̥̣̣̙̥͉̰̰̯̰̙͝͞ͅ
̧̳͍̱̝̹̺̩̩̕͡͞
̧̹͚͍͖͈̖̥̻̜͚̖̕͢.̢̛̗̳̫̭̼̺͖̹̱͎̣̝̼̠͝.͍̱̫̪͇̜̖͓̳͓̜̟͓̩̀́͘.҉̖̱͚͚̠̯͎͈̰̳̩͓̠̹͇̥͙̪́.̡̹̯͙̰̫̝̞̠ ̧̛̥͇͖͟͝ͅt̸̡̛̝̥̰̗̞̦͎̭͙́h҉̶̴̹̘̝̜͜ͅo̵̴̙̠͈̺̮̩͙͉̜̖̣͙̣̕͠͡u̷̡̱̺̦̹͜͡ǵ̛̹̯͉̘̪̗̮͢͠h̴̙̼̪̜̬̜̮̤̙̱̯́͞͝ͅ ̸̶̱̖̙͉̥͚͇̲̀͝I̴̸̫̲͎̱̭̪͖̩̫̝͇̝̗̞̥̤͟͟ͅ ̶͝҉͇̫̙̮̯̻͉̠͓ͅd͎̲͔̘̱̫̙͉̻͇̬͎͇̬͙͘͟͡ͅͅo͡҉̵͕̟̙̘̘͖̝ ̢̫͍̼̮̼͔̝͈͚̀̕ẃ̶̡̩̫̮̱̘̝͔̹̹̰̩̗̯̀͡ͅi͟҉̼͕̥̯̗̩͎̞̘̱̖̙̘̮̬ś̡̰̲͚̩͇̺̫̣̰̖̹͠h͏̞̤̦̥̕ ̛̜̭̠͇͉̳̮͕̖͢͢͟͡ͅy̰͎͔̝͈̩̭̯͇̻̮̤͔̪̙̘̤̫̦̕̕͢͝o̸͏̵̨̣̦̞͇̻̲̝̞̫̼̼̝̯ͅͅͅù̧͚̲͈̥͍͉̩̭͚̞̙̮̰͇̞͙̠͠ͅͅ ̷̼͉̼͔̤̻͓̪͈̠͙̝͓͟͞͠ͅͅw̷̧̟̺̜͚ơ̷̪̳̮̤͙̯̬͢͢͟u̧̢̳͎͚̣̼̯͓͎̳̘̪̟̟͉̻̕͝l̟̮̘̞̭̗̠̘̪̬̀͞͝ͅd̸̩͙̖̭̙̻̪͕͞ͅͅ ͝͏̧̘̫̬ͅt̶̡̧̟̤͚̬͕̦̣͚͚̺̗̥̤̖̗͠ę̸̶̞̣̺̝̘̥̰͎̗̬͈͖͔̺̬͓ļ̸̵̞̲̯͉̗̻̘̘͚̪͟l̸̡̫̪̬͖ ̸̵̜̙͙̟̯͇͝͞͡m҉̝̺͇͓͇͔͞ͅe̶̤̣̬̱̳̺͎͠͠ͅ,̵̞̘͉͍͓̳͚͔ ̘̺͕͉͚̰̀͟b̵̨̳͇͍̪̘̩̝̗̫̩̹̲̲̬̗͢r҉̶̬̣͕͉̫̫̕͡o̡̡̲̮͔̣͕̬̘͔̬̳͙̺̣̝̦͖̯͚t҉̡́҉̦̪̹̻̱͈h͏̷̵͙̻͉̼̹̬̯͘ͅe̵̪̞͉͇͘r̢̨̙̟͙̬̲̝̱̘͚̟͕̞͇̘͖͚.̴̨̬̳̬̣͚̫̞̜̳.̶̕͟҉̖̰͉̟̲͇̝͙̪.̴̨͔̙̩͔͓̖̙̹̙̬̯̯̜̪͇̙́̀̀
̢̀͡͡͏̺͍̩͔͉̳̗
̨̜̗̙͖͈͓͖͚̞̞̘̩͔̞W̶͚͚̙̹̞͈͎̬͙̬̻͔̰͙͕͘ͅͅh̴̕͏҉̫͚̤͠y̢̨̧̢̝̞̠̣̘̱̦̠͠ ́҉̡̟͉̺̦̥̙̰̜̪̜̮̬̱͕̯͚͕̥d̻̙̣̭͈̲̜̖͜͞o̶̡̘̫̝͇͚͔̮̞͟ ͢҉̡͉͔̪̼̝͎̻͙̞͞ͅy̸̵̠͔̮͙ờ̧̱͇͓̰̬̼̥̻̝͍͕̤̜̫̱͜u̸̵͓̗̼̱̺̘̮͟͡ ̷̸̵̗̩̦͔̯̱̪͓̺̥͇͉̱͜͡h̸̡̹̭̜̱̮̮͙̮͎͎͜͡͞a̩̘̭͙̰̜̣̻͖͕̦̘̟̞̩͝͞t̢̹̥͙̩̥̺͈̞̲͖̱͇͢͜e҉̲̖̗̘͔͍̤͇̟̤̫̦̦̩̀͜͞͠ ̧̰̳̼̜̳͕͈͙͔̖̠̯̀m̵̢̪̥̱̰͡e̮͙̤̱̤̙̳̪̝͖͎̰̘͖͢͠͠ͅ ̶̡̱̦̩̻̳̻͎̫̼̳̟͉͈̩͔̯̯̟̕͘s̴͉͖̦̩̯͖̤͎̠̜̭̬̰̠̩̙̱͜͝ơ̷̴̵̻͇͇̠̯͟ ̴̶̰͖̺̞͉̞̻͎̲m҉̤̻̥̯͖̕͟͢u̷̼̪̲̫̻̬͎͎͙͚̗͠ͅͅc̸͉͖̳̼̘̥̠̻͘͞h͕̲̪͔̱͈͚̲̭͈͓̫͓͘̕͠ͅ?̨̛̪̲̗̗̟̖͖̞̞̭͎͘͜ͅͅ
̨̜͍̞̳̻͇̖͓̘͍̺͘͡
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Several more pages have been ripped away or completely blotted out.

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Entry Twenty-Four

I cannot sleep.

Angelo did what he could. I am confident, at least for the time being, the delusions have subsided - though whether they will start again I cannot say.

Truthfully, I do not know if I will be able to tell. I am dreading waking only to find myself entombed or eviscerated. Perhaps both.

For all I know, I could be on deck still, and the reassuring words and embrace were naught but unfulfilled desires.

I do not know what is real.

In a few hours, this entry may not even exist.

I need something, anything, to tell me when I am hallucinating - a means to ground myself. I do not know what that could be.

Midst it all, I hear Bethany's voice. Some of what she says must be real. If it was not, there is no reason for me to have known the rings and amulets had been with Shaath's things.

But where does that reality cease?

These delusions permeate my every sense. I smell them. Hear them. Feel them. See them during the brief moments I am capable of sight.

What is left?

Just mere hours ago, I was convinced my body would be found cold and mangled on the deck, but it had been nothing but a twisted fantasy.

I had meant for this journal to remain private, though given myvwriting may even be delusional... Perhaps 'twould be best if more reliable eyes confirm its existence.

...or perhaps I should speak with Angelo... And Vieri... About the possibility of simply healing my own mind if Joel cannot.

If my mental state continues to falter...

I do not know.
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